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情人节过了。

情人节，对于情侣来说应该是最甜蜜的日子。在这科技资讯倡明的世界，随手用手机按按，都不难发现甜到腻的情侣们发布着另一半在情人节所给的惊喜。例如：送一大堆花啦、一大队礼物啦、在酒店/餐厅庆祝啦、求婚啦等等

对于单身者来说，看到自己面子书的版页充满着‘感人’的资讯，心里应该会有点心里不平衡吧？（纯属个人想法，不概括所有人，请对号入座吧！哈哈）

然而，对于没那么大势庆祝情人节的情侣们，应该都逃不了有这想法了：只要和她/他在一起，大家互相珍惜，那天天就是情人节了。

这话儿虽说得不错，在下虽赞同，但总觉得这句话用于我身上有点儿自欺欺人的感觉，因为我昨天真的有点失望：
1. 情人节前夕，我和他吵架了。和好后，他说：没有礼物和惊喜了。因为这是给我的惩罚。
2. 这是我人生中第一次过有情人的情人节。你说我没有期待？那肯定是假的。其实至少给我一支话也好，我也会很开心的。
3. 我有点吃醋了。我不相信他不懂浪漫，这只看他的意愿罢了。感觉遭透了。还要被问情人节罢了嘛，干嘛那么着紧。

也许一开头我就错了，不应该给任何期待，应该如往年一样帮自己买些自己喜欢的礼物，安排自己吃餐好的，酱失落感应该没酱强烈了。
但还得谢谢他请蛮贵的一餐。谢谢。

说实话，我得google下到底是谁发明这该死的情人节！
对男生来说：花钱，花神，花脑经以讨好另一半
对女生来说：即变花痴一名
对单身来说：白瞪眼的一天
对商家而言：找水鱼的一天

以下是我送给他的小礼物，虽不贵重，总算花了点小心思。
祝情人节快乐。

其实我知道他对我很好的。也许这次想法不同吧。加油！

有点无聊...就写点现在心情吧！
今天，很忙碌也很充实的一天。
一大早赴了两个会议，就赶slide给老板娘了，然后又忙着申请HRDF的grant了(打电话给他们整个下午了，大约四点半才接通。简直要急死我了！庆幸的是他们恨合作，也很帮忙！谢天谢地啊...)
回到家，直接扑到床上了...头真的痛到不行啊...还得想想明天如何应付training的事情,,,希望别处太大的差错哩...

话说，2月14日就到哩
这将会是我第一次庆祝情人节吗？
有点小期待，但又不敢期望太高
所谓希望越大，失望越大嘛...呵呵
现在就发下白日梦吧 =目

虽说我很少做过让自己后悔的事，但若做了，再后悔，我也会面对它，不让其重犯。
那天，我跟我蓝颜说：我发誓我再也不会跟他单独出去了，一次的经验就够了。
蓝颜问我: 重见过后，心里印象如何？
我给了个手式，蓝颜满足点头的笑了。我知道他会支持我的决定的，一向如此。

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男友，一个对你性格爱好极为了解你的人，也是爱着你的人
分手后，前男友，即变为最熟悉的陌生人

那天的一日游，让我发现了：
1. 他很无赖。无赖到让我拿他没办法。
2. 他问：你以后的打算如何？难道就像一直换公司吗？
    听到这儿，我心里一沉，沉默。谢谢Hean 帮我解围。
3. 他比我更了解我爸

很多人应该觉得不可思议，怎么我还能跟Ex出去呢?!
这是我给我自己的一个试验，让我自己更明白一些事情：
1. 虽说他曾经是最了解我的人，甚至也懂我家人，可是随着时间环境变迁，人是会变的。双方已有所改变，别把自己的爱好道理强制实施他人身上。
2. 别随便问你的前度：你以后有何打算？因为，她未来的打算其实并与你无关，也没必要如实通报。正所谓：我们确实憧憬过未来，可是未来不见得有我们啊！
3. 我心里终于放下他了。这事实可以完全确认了！ ^^

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Merry Christmas to all my friends!!
I thought it would be a lonely Christmas like what I celebrated during Valentine day and Birthday
since everyone is busy when I called them out
But
I felt lucky! haha..
Unimate is willing accompany me for about 6 hours dinner on xmas eve! and
Someone volunteer become my santa on the Xmas day
This Santa claimed that he off duty on Xmas and will leave the day for me (So touch!!)
Had a great day today btw
Breakfast- movie- Lunch- Meet Birthday couple in Midvalley- Dessert Time
and managed to catch some nice decoration pics!
2014 is coming in 1 weeks time..
Time to write some review of 2013..
hehe..and I shall make some wished =)

Once again
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!
Here to share some pic =)


" I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You"

Friends shared this kind of picture on my FB wall today
Though I saw it before (I think year ago), but still it made my mood a bit complicated
It just remind me of that...
I did all of these before (since we were students on that moment...)
After broke up, and saw the way he treated his current gf- going luxury restaurant for expensive food
Yeah
I just realized how stupid am I that I used to be like that
And yet I learnt a lesson.
Treat myself more better.
and prove myself that I always in a good condition!
I have to build a high wall in case to protect myself
It sound kinda sorry for the others (and I did it)
But what I can do now is waiting for someone who really can break down my wall and enter my heart
be forever...
This is not sound greedy...
但是...我的冷漠已经把我自己变得自己也认不出了...
but luckily I still have u guys be my side when i needed...so that I not actually totally lost myself...

Dude always tells me that I should let go
and can't be there hold the resentment and yuen hei against him liao
later someone will say me siu hei pulak

In fact, I thought I already let it go
and sometimes I even totally forget what his exactly face look like!
Just the memories always recall back those old memory
and again
another EMO day makes my day!

Dude, I really grateful that u always beside me
and tell the jokes to me
and the only 1 scold me SEI SH >.< *Ps: This is really OMG!
Nvm, I took my revenge to u dy! ngek ngek ngek...
Thanks!

想着明天是最后一张paper,心里即兴奋又开心
也许是太过兴奋与心急，今早七点多我已迫不及待的开始收拾
才刚开始要粘箱子(然后才能把东西放进去嘛), 我的室友突然起身对我·吼道：Courney！你就不能等下才弄吗！！！
心下一沉...真的TMD不爽！
本小姐憋了四天，终于等到今天才能收拾哩！顶你！你自己收拾好东西当然不紧张啦。反正你就是比我迟回！我明天一考完就要回了，时间比你紧促得多了！Dafuq! You make my plan all in a mess!!
很不爽！感到有点委屈...加上考试情绪影响下，忍不住哭了
不哭不哭！再多一天就能回家了！
感谢好友和妈妈的短信...真的很庆幸...每次都有你们的支持！
妈妈的短信很温暖：今天是端午节!回来补吃粽子！
好友的短信很温馨：Can't wait to see you soon!
有你们真好...

附上 步步惊心 可爱版图

祝愿 端午节快乐！

p/s: 今天也是我弟弟生日哩...生日快乐！
/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~还没买到礼物给他....

Early in the morning, my clock alarm was ringing

Emo night again...

My mum always say me that I'm a weird people without any friends
I don't know whether it is true or not
though sometimes it kinda hurt to hear that
but it usually need time to get used on it...
Just be myself...
In this real world, if you can't love yourself, you cant even expected more from others except family...
Let me be selfish for a while..or I always be selfish all the time~HA!

after back from my Hong Kong trip..
I started my new schedule for my holidays
But it was just too bored...
I need to work..as I really no money already..haha..I need money to buy a new camera
Few days ago, I sent my Sony touch screen camera to the Sony Service center to be repaired..but out of my expectation, the officer told my that my camera's len was broke and it needed about RM442 to change a new one!! Omg!!! Why don't I buy a new 1 indeed to pay so much money to repair it!! The camera already depreciation lah =.=
Guys, any suggestion for the camera? except DSLR!!

Hmm..what had did these few weeks?
1st- Celebrated Soh Fang's birthday. I gave a Polo wallet as his gift. Sook Sam and KC sounded no good for the gift and think that he will not like the gift...For God's sake, he told me he liked it so much..phew..

2nd- Had a small gathering with my MCc ji mui. We went JJ and sing k..haha..sorry to them, my voice is really terrible XP. Then we had our dinner at Euro house...yer..it just too bad I cant get a red wine for that night （ free red wine to the ladies from Mon-Thurs) as I need to drive later... Hmm..next time, I should try Barley...It really delicious!

3rd- Finished a HK drama- 花花世界 花家姐...touch to watch this drama..

It supposed a nice and happy trip to him..but then I had ruined his mood..

Starting for the month of May
It means Mother's Day is coming soon (8th of May)
As I scare I have no time to celebrate this special day with my mum, so I decided to celebrate it earlier before I have to get back to my Uni again this week
It just a simple celebration for my mum..Hmm..My bro and sis and I had shared some money and buy a 8'' size chocolate cheese cake from Gold Vision for my mum
Hope she likes it..hehe...and it tastes not bad lah ( the pic of the cake will be uploaded soon ya!)

My final exam will start on 7th of May..
I back to my hometown for almost 2 weeks dy for my study week...but yet...I feel like I din study much at home (maybe the distraction is too big at home...haiz...what to do...so easily get distracted at home)
To be more concentrated on my study..won't be blogging during the period of my final exam..
To all my dear friends who same Uni as me, Good Luck to u all!!
To all my dear friends who just finish their exam, Enjoy your holiday well ya!! Hope to see you all soon!!

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May God Buddha bless me...

Promising...

Yesterday I met with a senior that we had cooperated for an event for the last sem.
I felt kinda surprise when I found that his reaction was so big when we met at the dkg..
well, his reaction was just like totally wrong at that time and made me kinda angry for that
and finally I couldn't hold myself and I told him in front of him that (hmm.. I think I was sound like scolding him at that time): You no need give me the response like seeing me as a ghost or what! and I wont do any effort to force you or ask you to join anything! Now I just want to say hello to you nicely just like a friend only!
With reluctant, he finally said hi and walked away from me quickly
Duh... I really dislike that..
You are the senior who helped me a lots and willingly to give the reference books for free!
Though I not really understand what happened on you, and you would never explain, but I still hope to be your friend...
That's very hurt to see you like this...

*event's problem..friends, pls don't think too much for other sides. Thank you.*

Not in a good mood today
It seemed like many thing had happened and made me felt quite not syok
1. I had to go back early to my Uni to clean up my new room! It will make me a fully dull day as I will totally miss my closest cousin's wedding...What to do? Cry myself? No! Again, I miss another chance to wear my prom dress which I desperately seek for chances to wear it! FML!!!!! I'm freaking angry and upset about that!

2. U know, I love my new handphone. But then, I dropped it on the floor while I was cleaning my room on the 1st day in my Uni aka today without noticing my hp is inside my pocket!
I felt like I kinda freak out now!! It's new! It made my heart- broke when I knew that I cant switch on it whenever I had tried many times on it!!! omg..who can help me? I hope I can rush back to Ipoh now so that I can send my hp to be repaired!!! I really dont think that I can hold myself for 2 weeks watching my hp totally DEAD!!!!!

So, the stories of my 1st day start my sem 2! I really really dislike it!!!
Will everything become better soon?
I wonder...... God bless.....

good mood today
settle quite lots of thing today
1. Settle my passport
2. happy that he agrees to help me this Friday!! Really happy!!
3. Bought tickets for KL and Alor Setar

Now just waiting for:
1. The calling from Yayasan Perak
2. The PTPTN bank-in
*muka really no money dy..haiz...*

Suddenly have a feel like wanna write a brief review of 2010..
hehe.. I think it's because I feel too bored at home bah..

Talking about 2010..
hmm...I think it's quite ok for me for the overall of it..at least it doesn't give so much of sadness or angry events to me over the year

From the beginning of receiving STPM result and got what I had expected, preparing my Uni's stuff, then enter the chosen Uni, met new friends and joined some activities, and finally holidays.

Just 2 things remark on my mind along the year:
1. My study weeks became study month because of the heavy flood
2. Booked air-tickets to HK with my roomates though we just knew each others for 1 month (and yet it sounds interesting to me!)

Besides, I felt lucky too along the year! Met good course mates in the preparation of different assignments, good partners and seniors to prepare a big events and I learned a lot of new experiences that I never tried before!

I hope I get the same luck for the year of 2011!
May god bless me and you all..hehe =)

13/12/2010
Today is my final day
hehe..oops..supposed is the time to end of my 1st sem in Uni
and yet I still have my last paper- Bahasa Melayu Pengurusan at 2.30pm
so, it always a dilemma for me to choose between to pack my stuffs or keep revising the same notes for the last paper
But..obviously I chose the 1st option! Lol.. though I already started to pack my luggage few days ago, I still desperately feel that I should check and pack my stuff 1 more time for the 'last' moment (it actually just 11am, but I already give up to do my BM revision)..and then..I just waiting for the time to pass...
It supposed to be a 2 hours and 30mins for the BM paper
I just used 30mins to finish all the questions (80 Qs), and waited for the other 30mins only walked out from the exam hall.
Waiting for the bus for 30mins to back to my room
and yet I'm still the earliest to arrive my room (the other 2 roommates took same paper in other exam hall)
Since I had done all my packing early in the morning..I have nothing to do...
Looking around my hostel from my window view
many parents came here to fetch their daughters (my hostel is for girls) and they were busying helping them to pack and carry those luggage...
lol..they made me think of parents too... >.<

Suddenly I heard a loud screams outside my room!
Yunloi..a gang of monkeys visit our hostel again ( to search for food) and there has 2 monkeys started fighting for the food
and their act frighten the gals who just busy to move their luggage at the corridor...
Really funny to see those gals' expression.
They are as curious as me!
But they are scared of the monkeys! and 1 of them even took a broom in case try to chase those monkey to leave from our area! (Well... can she be consider brave enough? *wink* ) I feel like just an audience to watch this show
I always think that those monkeys are as frighten as us when they see us.
(It can be proved..lol..when I walked upstairs to find my roommate..I met a monkey and it showed its expression same like the pic on the right hand side! and then it ran away...)
This scene really suit for the name of my Uni- Jungle Uni- nature of life *smile

The bus which back to my hometown- Ipoh finally comes to my hostel at 6pm..late exactly 30 mins from the ori time!!
and I sit hours to arrive Ipoh!! About 6 hours!! omg..sakit punggung...
Luckily my dad bring me to have my dinner aka supper (cuz it's already 12am)
So touch!! Fish-grilled rice~~~Ipoh! I really love you!!

*stay tuned for the review of 2010 for some1 request!*

2 more papers to go..and having 1 day to rest..
but I'm freaking no mood to study and prepare for my next papers...
Upset mood clouded around me!
Supposed to be happy as I can go home soon
and there's will be a trip- Langkawi trip's waiting for me..
but then..
now...
facing a problem...
it could be sound like WOW when u heard that 10ppl going for a trip together (old school gang)
but..but...
it was just like 1 week before the trip..the number of friends who joining the trip..having a decreasing rate...for any reasons that they cant make it..sad to hear that...T.T
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maybe I shouldn't put so much of hope on that...