Let's begin my story

Please stop asking me any question especially my result!!!
Cuz I feel it Sucks!
It would only make me annoying and feel myself so self-inconfidience when I have to answer this question..
Gosh..Not the time to feel confuse! Just have to careful to take any of the steps now!
I know you worry about me..So do I too..I also worry about myself..not lesser than you..
I'm not dare to lose anything again..
Just let me alone to think deeply about my decisions 1st..
I promised I will tell you my thought when I'm ready...
Sorry for bad temper on you these few days..I'm sorry

Get my result today
I think it's my worst day ever in my life..
The 1st time I see my dad show his disappointment on his face..
It's make me really upset when I see it..blaming myself why i so useless..
Nightmares come true and my dreams fly away
Just can saying bye bye to Sg's Uni..(heart broken...)
Crying few times in my room..but it's enough for today
No more crying and blaming start from now

Yeah..I need to stand up
A lots of work need me to prepare too
I'm not losing the world as I still have the chance to enter the Uni
lol..something is out of my expectation only
Maybe it's just another choice for me in my life..
Build on another dreams and move forwards!!
Gambateh!!!

Received a msg from Karkar few days ago..What a shocked news!! Our STPM result will be released on 25th Feb!
For the confirmation, I checked through online..

Found this:
KUALA LUMPUR, Feb 19 (Bernama) -- The 2009 Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) will be announced on Feb 25.The Malaysian Examinations Council (MEC), in a statement here on Friday, said candidates could obtain their results at their respective schools from 12 noon that day, while the private candidates would get their results by post.

Candidates can also check their results through the short messaging system (SMS) by typing STPM and send to 36363, or type STPM Result and send to 15888.

They can also check their results by surfing the MEC website at http://www.mpm.edu.my from noon on Feb 25.

A media conference on the analysis of the examination results will be held on the same day at 11.30am at the MEC office, Persiaran 1, Bandar Baru Selayang, Batu Caves, Selangor.Last year, 52,348 candidates sat for the examination.They comprised 47,260 or 90.28 per cent government school candidates, 1,747 (3.34 per cent) private school candidates and 3,241 (6.38 per cent) private candidates.-- BERNAMA


Kinda shocked when saw this..cuz it much earlier than the previous year!!
Anyway, had a long discussion with Karkar ang Maggie about the Uni's topic on that night.
Feeling better after chat with them and make me think deeply for the preparation to apply the Uni and the ideas searching for the scholarships..
ishh..lots work to do..Hope i can make a better decision!
All decision only can make after getting the result..
Excited? Nervous?Wanna cry?
I dunno..mix feeling everyday after knowing that news..May God bless..

Chor 4(Wednesday)
Start my bai nian's journey early in the morning about 9.15am
After fetching Sook Sam from her house, I drive my car along the Tasek Road
Stay at Soh Fang's house about 30mins while waiting other friends come and join us
Really feel sorry to my friend especially Tiff, Ye, Voon and Soh Fang because of my bad temper..sorry
Visit many frieds house today-Soh Fang, Siew Chung, Moon, Choon Seng, Yi San, Ye, and Tiff.
Aman joins us half way when we make a visit to Choon Seng's house. Have a great moment at there when we play cards together. Too bad I din win any during the game, but it's good I also din lose too much in it..hehe XD
Get many angpaus today!!syoknya!!I like receiving angpaus!!!XD(actually I think the angpaus is fewer than last year..cuz still can't visit many friends' house as they not at home T.T..but it's ok..haha)

Thanks Yi San for offering us to have a lunch in her house. Her 'yong toufu' and coffee cheese cake really taste so good!!
Lol..me and Ye seem become younger jor in this pic!!!
Rush home at 5.30pm after the last station at Tiff's house cuz have dinner at Grandpa's house tonight.

Chor 5 (Thursday)Big event at my house today!!
BBQ party and a small gathering for my classmates of 5S2 and 5S1 and some friends in acs..hehe Cancelled all my bai nian and outdoor events on that day cuz have to stay at home to prepare for the party =)
Friends start to come to my house at about 7.00pm
Some come earlier in case to help me to prepare stg for the party

Coming guest on that day:
Alice, Amanda, Ye, Tiff, Maggie, Michelle, Sam Sam, Keng Chung, Siew Chung, Moon, Luke, Joshua, Adrian, Icarus, Soh Fang, Kok Thai, Woon, Choon Fai, Foo Keat, Kok Hui, Yee Fen, Sok Yi, Ling Hui, Sieu Hong, Hui Jin, Yi San, Chee Wai, Wai Kit, Fei Ye, Nicky, Jiet Nung, Ka Chun and friend,Choon Seng, Kelvin, Kok Min, Siang, Wei De, Xing Jui, Loon, Yew Cherng, Yew Meng..(hehe..around 40 ppl come)

Specially thx my friends to bring along some food to my house to share on that too!!
Choon Fai(nuggets),Hui Jin and Sieu Hong(agar2), Michelle(roasted duck),Chee Wai and Wai Kit(Ham), Aman and Kel(Hotdogs and Mashmaroo),Soh Fang and Jiet Nung(Fried Noodles),Icarus(agar2)..
Kel is preparing the sausages =)
4 leng zai and 1 leng lui XD
OLD FRIENDS
Seem like picnic =P

Appreciate their help very much!! Without their helps, I think the party can't go well. Thx a lots guys!!!
Besides, I also want to thank my friends who are coming for the party too..I hope they won;t feel bored during this party and can enjoy it too! It has been a while we din gather together since 2 years ago..I miss you guys..Appreciate all the chances that we can get togehter even we all apart with each other..Thx Thx..

Chor 2, Monday
visit many aunts today(my mother's side) and get many angpaus today =)
At night, back to my Dai Pak's house to have a wonderful dinner with my Mama(grandma)
Really feeling lucky today
I help my dad to play cards
Dad wins a lots. And I also get some money as comission for helping him- About RM180
(walao..i really feeling extremely lucky today!!!!)

Chor 3, Tuesday
Start to visit friends' house early in the morning
Hehe..start with Sook Sam's house 1st, then only followed by Adrian, Yen Teng, Kok Thai, Min, Wooi Herng, Siang and Fei Ye!
Feeling so happy and lucky cuz today visits can go well! It's awesome!
Some of them is out my expectation and my schedule too!
1. Celebrate birthday with Siang as today is his birthday. We suddenly decided to buy a small mocha cake to go to his house..lol..nice =)

2. Nvr expect I can visit Kok Thai, Min and Fei Ye's house today. I make it today and i very happy to meet my Poi Lam's cadet gang again!

Night, go to Cheng Yan's house.
Really so paisei when I sesat jalan again and I drive around a big round at Jln Kangsar.. =.= Siao lah me..
Although just 3 of us( me, Yen Teng and Min) go to her house, still can consider enjoy ourselves there.
Learnt new strategies of playing cards from Ms. Ong! Lol..as Min's said, Sg's style cards..haha XD
Hope next year still can go to her house again!! Miss you, Ms.Ong!! Nice bbq small party and thx for it! =)

Today is Chor Yat..Lol..Chinese's big day!!
Getting a big angpau from my parents early morning
Greeting Gong Xi Fa Cai to the aldults- my dearest Mama, uncle..
Gamble a bit with my uncle and cousins..haha..too bad cuz I jus helping my grandma to play the cards (mean- the money which I had win and lose is all non of my business lo..haha)

Today is also Valentine day..
Staying at home for a whole afternoon and night without call any friends out..haiz..really feeling so boring..
Anyway I feel happy today cuz good things always happen on me today =)
1. Big angpau frm parents( really a huge amount XD)
2. Wishes through all my friends via sms ...swweet ... =)
3. Calls from my friends who asking me go for a visit together this few days
4. I smile for a whole day..haha..means i din lose any temper to anyone..nice day, huh?

Time already pass 12am-means NOW is Nian 30
Will be have a reunion dinner soon
But before that, I think I have a lot of stuffs to do a few hours later after I getting enough sleep
Need to clean up the house, decorate and make it more CNY feel..
Talking about decorating..I drew a cartoon tiger for myself in case I can paste it in front of my bedroom's door =)
Long time din use my drawing stuffs..hope it wun be so bad for my drawing
It took me quite a long time to think wat sud i write beside the tiger..Finally i choose to write FOK"福"..Lol..cuz it's meaningful..haha

Extra shares:
I got a poke card from COMIC WEEKLY!!
Though it needs me to spend more a bit of money on it. But it worth!!
Thx for the magazine! The only 1 magazine which gifted the readers this special present.
LIKE IT!!

Yesterday, I got 2 black puppies from Pook.
We met at Choon Kee there, then terus said byebye after taking the puppies
At home, I checked the mail in Fb, I got a reminder frm Pook, reminded me:
1. Don't throw the puppies if I really don't want them
2. If someone gives dog to you,you need to exchange it with some sugar or sweets (Arcording to Chinese's Laws)
Swt..=.=
I dunno about the law at all...Hope his mum wun mind..Sry..later discuss with him again about the solution..LOL This is the 2 blackies(1 female, 1 male) requested by Me..haha
Special thx Pook n his mum for their kindness..
(p/s: Look at their sei yu yan..exactly alike him leh..wahaha >.<..kidding jek..dunb angry oh, Monitor)

Here the other pics for the whole album =)

(actually I hope i can make it in slide show..but failed..so sorry lo..haha)

你曾被几米的图画与文字感动过吗？那个站在风中的小女孩，那个坐在鸟儿背上的男孩，是不是一直活在你的心里？我们整天奔波忙碌，却忘记了最初的自己。当我们离最初的梦想越来越远的时候，或许这些简单的字字句句会让我们找到回去的路。

白羊座
“天要暗了，最后一道夕阳的余光即将消逝。
那场球赛，我们一败涂地，大家垂头丧气地默默离开。
我们还是做出胜利的手势吧！
多年以后，谁会记住那场令人沮丧的球赛呢？
只会看见相片里我们灿烂的笑容。”
还记得球场上冲锋陷阵的那个你吗？还记得一起踢球、一起摔跤的小伙伴们吗？大家都还在，只是再没有人回去过那个球场了。

金牛座
“遇见一个人要一秒钟的时间，
认识一个人要一分钟的时间，
喜欢一个人要一小时的时间，
爱上一个人要一天的时间，
忘记一个人却要用一辈子的时间。”
那个曾经离你而去的背影还在你的脑海里挥之不去吗？成长的路上留下的脚印你都深深的刻在心里了吧！

双子座
“一样的眼睛有不一样的看法。
一样的耳朵有不一样的听法。
一样的嘴巴有不一样的说法。
一样的心有不一样的想法。
是不是因为这样，一样的人生才有不一样的哀愁。”
身边的朋友们都有着不一样的烦恼，可是每次大家都在自言自语，我们似乎已经听不懂也不愿意去倾听对方的抱怨了，只剩下厌烦与焦躁。

巨蟹座
“总在快乐的时候，感到微微的惶恐。
在开怀大笑时，流下感动的泪水。
我无法相信单纯的幸福。
对人生的期负悲喜，既坦然又不安。”
这个世界变化得太快，握在手中的就一定会是我的吗？不安不安，还是不安。我需要你的怀抱，哪怕只是一小会，那也是真真实实的温暖。

狮子座



















“以为有了翅膀，就会变成一只鸟，
以为变成鸟之后，就可以拥有自由，
而今，拥有了期盼的翅膀，
却只能在小小的空间里，飞翔，遗失了自由，
原来自己还是搞不懂，
是想要翅膀，飞翔，或是自由，
还是只要一种追求飞翔的感觉。”
你的愿望实现了吗？可是你还是如此的沮丧，你要的已经摆在了眼前，难道一开始就错了，你误解了自己？还是，你已经变了？

处女座
在我最接近月亮的那一天，
月亮跟我说了一个秘密，
他说其实她是太阳；
在我最接近月亮的那一天，
我跟月亮说了一个秘密，
我说其实我很怕高。
在自己面前应该一直留有一个地方，然后去爱。不知道是谁，不知道如何去爱，也不知道可以爱多久。只是等待一次爱情，也许永远都没有人，可是这种等待就是爱情本身。

(另个版本）
“我遇到猫在潜水，却没遇到你。
我遇到狗在攀岩,，却没遇到你。
我遇到夏天飘雪，却没遇到你。
我遇到冬天刮台风，却没遇到你。
我遇到猪都学会结网了，却没遇到你。
我遇到所有的不平凡，却一直遇不到平凡的你。”
一直坚持宁缺毋滥的你，相信最好的是值得耐心等待的。偏偏最后掉下的红苹果，通常是酸的。而惊心动魄的伟大爱情，通常不是等来的。

天秤座
“窗外放晴了，屋内仍继续下雨。
我微笑，并不等于我快乐。
我撑伞，并非只是为了避雨。
你永远都不懂我在想什么。
我想拥抱每个人，但我得先温暖我自己，请容忍我。
因为我已在练习容忍你。”
每天都在不厌其烦的维持着自己优雅的风度吗？面对讨厌的人，你天天练习微笑；面对讨厌的事情，你从来都是当仁不让地接受。

天蝎座
“摘不到的星星，总是最闪亮的。
溜掉的小鱼，总是最美丽的。
错过的电影，总是最好看的。
失去的情人，总是最懂我的。
我始终不明白，这究竟是什么道理。”
不要总把喜欢的东西带回家，你的家放不下，你的心也装不下。就让他们待在原来的地方好了，想起他们的时候，我们一起回忆吧。

射手座
“所有的悲伤，总会留下一丝欢乐的线索。
所有的遗憾，总会留下一处完美的角落。
我在冰封的深海，找寻希望的缺口。
却在午夜惊醒时，蓦然瞥见绝美的月光。”
为什么我们在努力的行走，前方却越来越黑暗，我们要去向哪里？即使是世界上最黑暗的角落，也有愿意照耀着你的星星，带你找到前方的路。

摩羯座
“颁奖的音乐响起时，我觉得好尴尬。
第一名的人，兴奋过头，休克送医院急救，无法领奖。
第二名的人，不服气了，拒绝领奖。
第四名的人，因为不是前三名，没脸领奖。
第五名的人说：“第四名的人都不领奖了，我也不好意思领奖。”
第三名的人真寂寞。
难道是“过程比结果更重要”吗？难道是“比赛第一，领奖第二”吗？明明是自己定下的游戏规则，为什么大家都不玩了。

水瓶座
“人不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的忧愁。
鱼不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的快乐。
鸟不是人，怎会了解人的荒唐。
人不是鸟，怎会了解鸟的自由。
鸟不是鱼，怎会了解鱼的深沉。
鱼不是人，怎会了解人的幼稚。
你不是我，怎会了解我。”
我总是相信世界上有一个人，她和我一样是个不一样的人。我不知道她在哪里，可是我可以感觉到，所以我不在乎身边的人是否理解。

双鱼座
“肚子饿了，开始吃饭，
吃得饱饱，开始想你，
觉得困了，开始睡觉，
睁开眼睛，开始想你，
夜幕低垂的那一刻，其实什么事情也没有发生……”
好久没有发呆了，上一次发呆是什么时候呢？是被老板凶巴巴地责备的时候，还是吃东西忘了付钱的时候？

Hanging out with Adrian at Ipoh Parade today..
That boss ah..really hard to ajaknya out..
Anyway thx for him gratefully as he is willingly go out with me when he heard me tat's I have a lots of question to ask him =)
He feels suprise when I ask him not so many questions..haiz..how many question that only can consider it is more..I wonder..
Before he is coming back from Genting, I have do some homework about the University's courses, so that I won't be so blur when I asking him these type of questions..As I found clearer about this topic, it becomes lesser questions to ask him dy..pls dun blame me lah..Adrian..
I'm not want to wasting your time..haha..pls just consider that I long time din see you loh, wanna know more about your working experiences at Genting there, and funny events at there..and you should also see some friends who are working at parade too mah..hehe

Heard a bad news ytd..
A friend's mum is passed away..
Adrian, SamSam, Bubu, Poh Yee, Pak Long, Fei Ye, Kopi, Lily, Hok Lim....i think some more are going to his house tonight..
I can't go with them..as my mum is not allowed..
sry..Muk..

Almost a week din blogging already..haha..not I'm so lazy..It's just I'm too busy XD and the timing also not very good..
Btw, since it already 1 week, many things also had happen..so I better make it brief here. haha =P

Working experiences
Seem like I have to work everyday for the last week( actually I hv 2 days off in a week)

23/1/10(Sat)- I had to replace my aunt for helping my dad. Lol..long time din go to Mani Nawar already..Hmm..no big different at there..but maybe I too long time din go there, so when I was buying a burger at there. It made me supriced! Cuz it just cost RM1.20 (bo egg lah),then I ordered a 'special' burger lo (egg+chicken burger)and it only spent me RM1.70. So, what can I say here. Cheap!and of course delicious too. Besides, I also bought a dodoi to eat..Wow..It recalled me the taste( I just eat a few time when I was young..and it all not sold at my live place anymore T.T)Omg..RM3 already can buy a lots of dodoi..berbaloi lo..wakaka

The man inside the red circle, is my dad. He was arranging the clothes..haha..

There's a fish hawker next to my dad's stall. Lol..every saturday many ppl buying fish there. =P



25/1/10(Mon)- Actually I wanted to skip to work today..haha...cuz too lazy...and I needed to drive there. But my dad suddenly called and said he was feeling not well..headache and faint..Well..he managed to hook me out finally. Anyway, when I was back home that day, I found that my mum locked the wooden door, that's mean I no key to enter my house T.T ..What a bad day..Ntg to do at that moment, I only can squad down in front of the door and waiting my dad came back to rescue me..Haiz..

26/1/10(Tues)- My dad suddenly asked me to drive to Pengkalan to work by myself.. Feeling quite not willling at that moment cuz I din know that road well..But I had to do so.. Btw, lady fortune still not following me today..when I drove home..happened some silly incident that made me late to reached at home about 20 mins..and I had to stepped on the clutch continuously..it really made my leg felt so 'sour'..Haiz

28/1/10- Replaced my aunt to work again..@.@ Well..I also long time din go Kopisan le..It really changed a lots. Found a new restaurant's owner near my dad's stall..Since my dad said the 'chee cheong fun' there is quite delicious, then i took a try..haha..I just feel Ok for that food jek..paisei lah..haha

29/1/10- Actually I hoped that Aman can work together with on this day..But since she already found a new job, then my wish broke le..haha(I really feel quite disappointed at the fortnight when she told me about that news). *muka tried to hold on my wish to buy some new clothes tat day T.T* Anyway, there's happened 1 thing that almost made me laugh out loud when I was buying 2 ketul kepung from the hawker. The hawker asked me to pack in the food by myself. He said: "Ah Lui, don't be so lazy lah..sendiri pack lah", while himself jau squatting down beside his stall, taking out at a cigerette ready to smoke..grrr...at that moment, I'm thinking in my mind: Wow..like this also can ah...I'm the customer le..*muka wanna pengsan @.@*
But no choice, I did it n packed the food as I was too hungry at that time..
At night, went to pasar malam with SamSam..just a quick walk..seeing nothing at there..haha

For 24/1, 27/1- There's actually din hv any 'big' incident happened that days and I wanted to make my briefing short..so din write them out le (Haha..tat's mean I lazy lah..)

CNY stuffs
I finally managed bought all my cny stuffs last week!!! It's the only thing made me happy for that week..haha
It's really very happy shopping with my mum. XD
She bought me 3 dresses!! and gave me another new 1 since she not suit to wear it. Syok lo..haha

I also found my dream shoes in Ipoh Parade too!! Excitement rushing in my mind XD(It looked like cinderella's shoes, so it attracted me very much!! 8D)
Yeah..finish collected my cny stuffs. Mission done! Fuh-Yoh!
(These are all my cny stuffs: Diamond high heels, hair ribbon, shinny brace, rose white ear rings, some dresses and zebra-style jacket! )

Extras
Bad dream few days ago. I dreamed Aman is going for a trip with me and some friends, and stay a night too during that trip. I slp with her n my guitar. Finally the next day, I found that my guitar is broken in to 1 in tat dream =.= What a funny dream..